So Self Absorbed

First of all, thankyou to all those randoms who left a comment on my last post - it makes me feel all warm inside. I will get round to reading your stuff too.

...However, not one of you expressed any concern about my mental health... just kidding of course!

Dispute Resolved
Well, since my last post me and Shagger have resolved our differences and are now back on friendly terms. To be honest, I didn't think it would happen, and I was intent on not speaking to him again, but largely down to his efforts, it's all sorted. I really had a go at him the next day, venting what seemed like months worth of frustration, but in a very mature way he asked me to calm down and talk about the problem. We discussed it and (probably due to me being a good listener and him being a good talker), and he managed to convince me into seeing things from his point of view. After, I did feel completely calm and all the resentment and frustration had seemingly just washed away. We both agreed we had both been well out of order and then that was it - sorted. I was intending on moving out anyway shortly but it seemed daft to live those last few days in a flat full of tension.

Although it was very unfair and unconsiderate of him to have a party at 2am on a Tuesday night, when I was up the later that morning for a 12-hour shift in a shitty call centre, I did realise it was a bit crazy of me to go in and confiscate the TV, aggressively ripping out the cables and throwing CDs/DVDs about in the process. However, at the time it's not always easy to think rationally. My behaviour was I think mainly down to feeling generally frustrated over the past few weeks and it was all too easy to take it out on someone given the slightest excuse. You live and you learn. It's all sorted now.

One thing that Shagger pointed out which I agree with is that I am quite a self-absorbed person. You can probably tell form reading this blog. Sometimes it can be my undoing.

New Flat
My current lease expires on the 21st September and I've started looking for a new place already. As Shagger is now on £18k a year + bonuses (not bad for 18), he can comfortably afford to stay in the penthouse. I, however, cannot. As well as looking for a place myself, he will need to advertise for a new flatmate. I phoned a couple of numbers today and have arranged a couple of viewings today and tomorrow. Next week I plan to view as many places as possible. I'll keep you updated.

As Good As Gold, As Tedious As Goldfish
Work's been increasingly tedious, and yesterday I must've spent about 7 hours of my shift taking the same old payment calls - yawn. As soon as I've got a new flat I will be looking for a new job, pronto. It's not so much the call centre that bothers me, it's probably more the 12 hour shifts in that kind of job. I can't take much more - agghhh. I was interviewed briefly regarding my being AWOL on Wednesday but I explained my reasons and everything should be fine (aside from not getting paid).

Cds/Books
I'm really into music and recently have been listening to a lot of albums (I'm more of an album than singles person). I've been listening to some Joy Division, a bit of Air, and Coldplay as well (the last 2 albums). They're not everyone's cup of tea, but I think they're one of the few bands who produce full albums of good/great songs - all killer no filler, as the saying goes. A Rush of Blood to the Head is a good album - any album with songs like Clocks, Green Eyes and the title track on the same album must be a damn good one. The new one, X & Y, is really good, too. Often the lyrics leave a lot to be desired, and to be honest I've no idea what most of the songs are about, but the music itself is often sublime.

I recently discovered the Pixies as well; I'd never paid them any notice before, but saw a couple of promos on MTV/VH1 or something - Monkey Gone to Heaven and Here Comes Your Man, which I liked, and I recently discovered those songs are both on the same album (Doolittle) - I spotted the album in HMV for £4.99 and had to have it. I've listened to the album several times since and find it very addictive. It's packed with short punk/pop songs each roughly 2 1/2 minutes long, which are as catchy as they are wierd - the band of the moment for me. They've reformed recently as well.

Also recently, I've purchased a couple of books; as I mentioned before, I've got a book about Ian Curtis and Joy Division in the pipeline, and today I got Crazy Diamond - Syd Barrett & the Story of Pink Floyd, and also Gigantic - The Story of Frank Black & the Pixies - I only just realised after typing this, but those are too strangely similar titles, something I didn't realise before. I do enjoy reading but it's something I'm just not in the habit of doing.

And so, today I met Shagger in Times Square in St Enoch Square, before coming here, to the EasyInternet cafe. Later, I'm going to view a flat. It'll probably be a quiet weekend for me as I've got some events lined up over the next couple of weeks. What I haven't probably mentioned is that I got my old Motorola mobile phone unlocked and have been using it with my new SIM card. Should be able to get an upgrade from o2 in a couple of months anyway, but ladies if you need to contact me, you can now.

Watch this space.