The Beginning of the End...?

Well, this is it... I've got a small amount of money left in my bank, but I'm expecting a return of the deposit from my old flat, along with unused holiday credit in a lump sum from my agency. If I run out of cash, I've always got an overdraft as backup, but hopefully it won't come to that. My income at the moment is zero, and will remain so until I get a job.

I suppose I could sign on, but I just can't be bothered with the paperwork etc. I'm hoping I can find a job before the need arises. I can't really be bothered with anything right now, as like I said my stubborn bodyclock is in full control and prefers a nightly service! I was told by Suzi that I couldn't sign on anyway for at least 6 weeks as I resigned but officially it looks as if I'll get the sack first as I didn't tell them I've resigned (officially).

Basically, if I don't get a job within the next few weeks then I'll probably have to declare myself bankrupt. I really don't want to move out the flat though as this flat is the best so far overall (in terms of quality, price, location etc). I really can't be bothered moving again as it's just so much hassle. All I've been searching for is a flat I can say I'm content to live in for the forseeable future. I've moved - wait for it - 7 times in the past 3 years! I just want to settle!!

I'm still certain I made the right decision quitting goldfish; those long shifts, listening to mainly English snobs (complete with double-barrelled names and house names-not-numbers) moaning and sighing constantly, was taking away my will to live. I needed the holiday as well. If I didn't have the financial backup then I guess I wouldn't've had the choice.

Unemployment's not so good either. Without a motivation or purpose to get out of bed, I just can't seem to get up and discipline myself. A mass job search is not exactly something to look forward to but it is a necessary evil! Basically I'll take anything just now, so long as it's regular hours and at least £12k a year. I can see the future... it's... another call centre! :(

My long term goals? Get into a decent (probably degree-related) job, stay in the flat and hopefully meet a nice ladyfriend - pretty generic goals, but if I can do that over the next year or so, then I can perhaps take things from there on.

Lastly, an update on my "unemployment viewing"...

Fear & Loathing In Las Vegas: Wierd, psychedelic trip film, set in Las Vegas. Entertaining and colourful. Johnny Depp stars.
Rating: 3/5 (partly because the video quality was poor and I couldn't hear half the dialogue)

See, I can't even be bothered to write a proper film review...!